… can I do this?

I’m only a few chapters into the book I bought yesterday (Scars That Wound: Scars That Heal: A Journey out of Self-Injury, by Jan Kern), and I’m starting to have some pretty huge doubts about whether or not I can finish it. Just in those few chapters, so many horrible, bloody memories have re-surfaced, and [...]

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Let’s try something different?

I am so grateful for Sundays… Holy wow. It’s such a release to be able to go to church and be encouraged, given the chance to encourage others, and laugh with friends. My family at my church has been instrumental in keeping me mostly sane, especially when my struggle with self injury first began. Today, [...]

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Today is a strange day…

… and I’m not really sure why. I’ve been hanging around with family members all day, having fun, occasional spats aside. The weather has been kind of yicky, but that’s okay. I’ve been getting some writing done, which is good, and I got the Prince Caspian soundtrack for Christmas, which has helped.
I dunno. I fell up [...]

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I’m starting to miss my dorm…

I think I need to get out of here. I never realized how loud my house could get, especially with two siblings who are throwing temper tantrums or at each other’s throats over tv/computer time, nearly constantly. I really kinda want to be back at my dorm, where things were quiet when I needed them [...]

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Christmas and forgiveness

Phew. Finals are over, and as far as I can tell, I didn’t fail any of my classes. Some of my grades weren’t up as high as I liked, but considering certain events, I don’t think it could have been helped. Now that I’m back at home, homework-free, I’ve already found myself filling my time [...]

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Two finals down, two to go…

The first ones were the easiest two… And now I get to spend today filling my brain with two more sets of information, hopefully to the point where I’ll be able to do well on tomorrow’s 7:30 am and 9:45 am tests… And after that, I’ll be done! Hooray! ^_^ And then, I’m going [...]

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Ugh to the max

… you ever get stuck in one of those awkward social drama situations between two of your close friends, where whatever choice you make ends up offending one of them, and you love them both to pieces and don’t want to offend either of them, in fact, you want to make sure they’re both alright, [...]

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… dead week…

Life is pretty crazy, huh? This weekend, there was a double homicide in west Ames, the city where I’m going to school. I got a call from the ISU-alert number Saturday morning, and had to listen to the message about the killings and the person of interest twice before it sunk in. The story was [...]

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Ramblings of an over-stuffed mind…

Honestly, I have no idea what I’m going to end up publishing in this post. I shouldn’t be as tired as I am, and I’m starting to think that fighting with my dysthymic nature is taking a heavier physical toll than I anticipated. I don’t know whether to feel completely lost, drowning in something close [...]

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