[taking a break from watching friends play Smash Brothers]

I feel like I should be a lot happier right now… I did alright out in the social world after a really bad nightmare, work is going well, we’ve been having people over to the apartment every few days, my classes are going alright… But since my last post, my thoughts have turned a shade darker, maybe three or four shades. I’ve had to use razor blades to open cases of soda and food and such at work, and it’s been really challenging. These past few days, I’ve become really self-conscious about my scars again, and had a couple moments where I reflected too deeply on the worst parts of my relapses last year. I don’t really want to talk to anyone about being uneasy, because I know everyone is working on getting into the groove of school, and I don’t want to throw them off or anything… I don’t really know what to do. My brain is only sort of working, so I don’t have anything epic, or even deep to say, I just seem to keep rambling…

Oh well. Maybe things will look better in the morning.