One week ago today, something inside snapped. I’ve tried to articulate what’s going on in my head and in my heart, and the best I can come up with is “I’m thinking too hard,” or more accurately, “I don’t know.” I don’t have names for the feelings or the emotions, or even the thought processes. [...]
Posts Tagged ‘amazing grace’
Day 7
Posted in Pondering Life, tagged school, friends, depression, memories, stress, self injury, Orion, cutting, contemplating life, amazing grace, blessings, regret, God, forgiveness, confusion, mistakes, sadness, scars, Corinne, Jess, Nicole, Campus Crusade for Christ, Ryan on October 20, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I haven’t got a catchy title, I just need to type…
Posted in Pondering Life, school, tagged amazing grace, blessings, confusion, Corinne, cutting, depression, forgiveness, friends, God, Jess, mistakes, music, Nicole, prayer, regret, Ryan, sadness, scars, school, self injury, stress, suicide, thankfulness, work on August 27, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
So, I’m almost done with my first week of my second year of college. Things have, with tiny exceptions, been going extremely well. I haven’t gotten lost or missed any classes, I have most of what I need to get through the semester, including a job where I don’t feel totally out of place, even [...]
Suddenly, I feel very small…
Posted in Pondering Life, Random-ness, tagged amazing grace, blessings, Borderline Personality Disorder, depression, dysthymia, family, forgiveness, friends, God, Hillsong, homework, music, personality disorders, scars, school, self injury, Tokio Hotel on February 16, 2009 | 2 Comments »
I don’t even know what’s the matter with my head. Today started off really really early, but this morning was good, and even with not nearly enough sleep, I managed to stay awake in both of my classes, and my appointment with counselor lady. I even took the initiative to go to a familiar quiet [...]
I survived another Wednesday…
Posted in Random-ness, school, tagged amazing grace, blessings, bruising, church, Corinne, cutting, depression, Dr. Pepper, dysthymia, family, friends, God, Jess, mistakes, Nicole, sadness, school, stress, thankfulness on February 12, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
This morning started off differently than usual, when my roommate’s alarm didn’t go off, and I woke her up about half an hour before her 8am class. Molly is a beast — this chick was out of bed, showered, dressed, and made it to class on time. Usually, she’s up before 7, and isn’t rushed. [...]
It’s been a while…
Posted in Random-ness, Uncategorized, tagged amazing grace, church, confusion, Corinne, cutting, depression, dysthymia, family, friends, God, Jess, mistakes, Nicole, Orion, prayer, scars, school, self injury, stress, suicide on February 7, 2009 | 1 Comment »
… and I’m (sorta) happy to report that things have changed a bit since the last time I wrote here. I can’t tell you any specific cause, but sometime last week, something gave me a boost. Thinking back on those few days, I can only smile.
I was on top of the world — I couldn’t [...]
Christmas and forgiveness
Posted in Pondering Life, tagged amazing grace, Christmas, church, dysthymia, God, Orion, prayer, school, self injury, work on December 21, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Phew. Finals are over, and as far as I can tell, I didn’t fail any of my classes. Some of my grades weren’t up as high as I liked, but considering certain events, I don’t think it could have been helped. Now that I’m back at home, homework-free, I’ve already found myself filling my time [...]
Thoughts and thankfulness
Posted in Pondering Life, tagged amazing grace, blessings, contemplating life, cutting, dysthymia, friends, LST, Orion, self injury on November 25, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Today was another good day, no doubt. More sleeping in, lunch out with Dad, and a reunion with the Lifehouse Skit Team (we performed last May, and haven’t all been able to get together since school started, with two of us away at college).
That’s hard to beat.
I’m not really sure where any of this came [...]