Day 7

One week ago today, something inside snapped. I’ve tried to articulate what’s going on in my head and in my heart, and the best I can come up with is “I’m thinking too hard,” or more accurately, “I don’t know.” I don’t have names for the feelings or the emotions, or even the thought processes. [...]

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I haven’t got a catchy title, I just need to type…

So, I’m almost done with my first week of my second year of college. Things have, with tiny exceptions, been going extremely well. I haven’t gotten lost or missed any classes, I have most of what I need to get through the semester, including a job where I don’t feel totally out of place, even [...]

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Whew… Road trip tomorrow!

The packing is almost done, the boxes are all over my living room, my brain is running a bazillion miles an hour 24/7, I’m nervous and excited and ready and not ready, all at the same time. Tomorrow, I take off on a 6 hour drive to Ames, Iowa, to start my sophomore year as [...]

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Saturday night musings…

Again, I have no idea where I’m going with this, so I might as well just start rambling. It’s been a pretty good weekend: almost exclusively lovely, in fact. I spent a bit more than I day driving to Iowa with my (non-biological) big Brother Ryan, helping him move stuff into storage in his new [...]

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*Ramble, ramble, sigh*

I don’t know where I’m going, I don’t know how I’m going to get there, and I don’t know how long it will take. So many things are uncertain, and yet things like my own clumsiness, vulnerability, and self-destructive tendencies can always be counted on. Sometimes, I can see myself and my condition through eyes [...]

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Suddenly, I feel very small…

I don’t even know what’s the matter with my head. Today started off really really early, but this morning was good, and even with not nearly enough sleep, I managed to stay awake in both of my classes, and my appointment with counselor lady. I even took the initiative to go to a familiar quiet [...]

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I survived another Wednesday…

This morning started off differently than usual, when my roommate’s alarm didn’t go off, and I woke her up about half an hour before her 8am class. Molly is a beast — this chick was out of bed, showered, dressed, and made it to class on time. Usually, she’s up before 7, and isn’t rushed. [...]

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Emotional mountains and valleys

Today was a nice day. The brutal cold of midwestern winters is fading to a brisk, comfortable temperature, which means less time is spent bundling up before walking outside. Classes didn’t start until 12:40, we got to sight read new music in band, and I ate lunch and dinner with friends that made me laugh. [...]

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Gearing up for a rough Monday…

I’m not even sure why I’m writing this, except that I need to kill time to attempt to tire myself out, in the hope that I’ll be able to fall asleep quickly tonight. My insomnia hasn’t gone away, and I’m still sleeping in chunks of three hours or less. I spend far too much time [...]

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Happy Thanksgiving & something to consider

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!! I borrowed this from a friend’s note on facebook (thanks, Andy! : P ). It’s just something to consider. We really do have a lot to be thankful for, and we take so much of it for granted. Keep on counting your blessings, and you’ll keep finding more.
“No matter what your political [...]

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