Can’t sleep, so I shall blog.

I should be sleeping, even though I don’t have school tomorrow. But I can’t, I’ve gotten my mind whirring too furiously, and my heart too worked up to even keep my eyes closed for long. This weekend has been a series of catastrophically dramatic ups and downs, from laughing with friends for hours, to working [...]

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So, I don’t really know where I’m going with this. I haven’t blogged in far too long, probably because I can’t seem to get my thoughts in order for long enough to write something of interest. Also, a good chunk of these summer weeks have been wonderful — my depression and BPD were stable, I [...]

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The questions just keep flooding in…

These past few weeks, as well as the next week, have been and will be incredibly busy for me. It’s the end of the semester, and everything is due. Last week alone contained four separate tests, a quiz, and two presentations. This week is papers and quizzes and projects, and more trying to figure out [...]

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What do I do now?

Before I started this post, I sat at my computer, staring at the screen with tears in my eyes for a good five minutes before I started typing — I’m so frustrated and confused, I can barely concentrate or think straight.
Since I got back to school, I’ve been slipping back towards major depression, and I [...]

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Phew. Am back.

It’s been a while, and I do sincerely apologize. Life has thrown me a lot of curve balls in the past few weeks, and I’m still trying to figure everything out, which should not surprise you… Blehh. Here goes.
Last night, I arrived back on campus after a week of spring break. My “twin” Jess and [...]

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Thursday’s Encouragement

I must say, these past few weeks have been long, stressful ones for me, and they’re starting to take a visible toll. I’m exhausted, I don’t feel like getting up in the mornings, I yawn all day, but still toss and turn when I do try and sleep. On the off chance that I do [...]

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*Ramble, ramble, sigh*

I don’t know where I’m going, I don’t know how I’m going to get there, and I don’t know how long it will take. So many things are uncertain, and yet things like my own clumsiness, vulnerability, and self-destructive tendencies can always be counted on. Sometimes, I can see myself and my condition through eyes [...]

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Suddenly, I feel very small…

I don’t even know what’s the matter with my head. Today started off really really early, but this morning was good, and even with not nearly enough sleep, I managed to stay awake in both of my classes, and my appointment with counselor lady. I even took the initiative to go to a familiar quiet [...]

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