Phew. Am back.

It’s been a while, and I do sincerely apologize. Life has thrown me a lot of curve balls in the past few weeks, and I’m still trying to figure everything out, which should not surprise you… Blehh. Here goes.
Last night, I arrived back on campus after a week of spring break. My “twin” Jess and [...]

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Sifting through piles and piles of thoughts…

It’s already 12 minutes into Thursday, and for some odd reason, it still feels like a Monday to me — maybe a generous Tuesday, tops. Couldn’t tell ya why, maybe I’m just losing it…
As far as weeks go, this one has been decent, but bumpy. I haven’t fallen asleep in any classes, the weather’s looking [...]

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Thursday’s Encouragement

I must say, these past few weeks have been long, stressful ones for me, and they’re starting to take a visible toll. I’m exhausted, I don’t feel like getting up in the mornings, I yawn all day, but still toss and turn when I do try and sleep. On the off chance that I do [...]

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*Ramble, ramble, sigh*

I don’t know where I’m going, I don’t know how I’m going to get there, and I don’t know how long it will take. So many things are uncertain, and yet things like my own clumsiness, vulnerability, and self-destructive tendencies can always be counted on. Sometimes, I can see myself and my condition through eyes [...]

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Suddenly, I feel very small…

I don’t even know what’s the matter with my head. Today started off really really early, but this morning was good, and even with not nearly enough sleep, I managed to stay awake in both of my classes, and my appointment with counselor lady. I even took the initiative to go to a familiar quiet [...]

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I survived another Wednesday…

This morning started off differently than usual, when my roommate’s alarm didn’t go off, and I woke her up about half an hour before her 8am class. Molly is a beast — this chick was out of bed, showered, dressed, and made it to class on time. Usually, she’s up before 7, and isn’t rushed. [...]

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It’s been a while…

… and I’m (sorta) happy to report that things have changed a bit since the last time I wrote here. I can’t tell you any specific cause, but sometime last week, something gave me a boost. Thinking back on those few days, I can only smile.
I was on top of the world — I couldn’t [...]

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The ups and downs continue…

I think I need to come up with term for this insane, frustrating, exhausting up and down and up and down and up and down thing that my mind keeps doing. Up– sleeping in and lunch out with Nicole. Down– mom read my blog and calls, crying because she’s worried about me, I get so [...]

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Emotional mountains and valleys

Today was a nice day. The brutal cold of midwestern winters is fading to a brisk, comfortable temperature, which means less time is spent bundling up before walking outside. Classes didn’t start until 12:40, we got to sight read new music in band, and I ate lunch and dinner with friends that made me laugh. [...]

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Here we go again…

Today doesn’t feel like a Tuesday. It’s throwing me off.
I got back from the retreat yesterday afternoon, after a day of adventuring through thigh-deep snow to frozen rivers, laughing, human knots and pyramids, conversations around candles and a burning fireplace, late night movies and Bible studies. On the whole, it was an experience I would [...]

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