The explanation I owe [Warning: Sensitive Content]

[ The following was posted as a note on my facebook profile on Monday night, sorry I forgot to post a copy here as well. ]
Whether you missed the event, heard the story, were there, or have no idea what’s going on, there’s some stuff that needs to be put out in the open. I’m [...]

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One week left?!

Goodbye, summer! I have less than a week before I head back to Ames for my sophomore year at Iowa State University. As excited as I am, I’m not sure if I’m completely ready yet. I’m more than ready to move into Presbyteria and leave my angry, angsty-teenager-full house, and I’m more than ready to [...]

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Saturday night musings…

Again, I have no idea where I’m going with this, so I might as well just start rambling. It’s been a pretty good weekend: almost exclusively lovely, in fact. I spent a bit more than I day driving to Iowa with my (non-biological) big Brother Ryan, helping him move stuff into storage in his new [...]

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[ Untitled ]

So, I don’t really know where I’m going with this. I haven’t blogged in far too long, probably because I can’t seem to get my thoughts in order for long enough to write something of interest. Also, a good chunk of these summer weeks have been wonderful — my depression and BPD were stable, I [...]

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Apologies and promises

I’m so sorry for not updating more regularly… Things have been insane the past few weeks: ending my second semester at ISU, finals, packing everything up, getting home, unpacking, catching up with everyone, writing, trying to sleep, meeting with a psychiatrist, medication changes, scheduling visits to family and from college friends, gearing up for New [...]

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What do I do now?

Before I started this post, I sat at my computer, staring at the screen with tears in my eyes for a good five minutes before I started typing — I’m so frustrated and confused, I can barely concentrate or think straight.
Since I got back to school, I’ve been slipping back towards major depression, and I [...]

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Phew. Am back.

It’s been a while, and I do sincerely apologize. Life has thrown me a lot of curve balls in the past few weeks, and I’m still trying to figure everything out, which should not surprise you… Blehh. Here goes.
Last night, I arrived back on campus after a week of spring break. My “twin” Jess and [...]

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Thursday’s Encouragement

I must say, these past few weeks have been long, stressful ones for me, and they’re starting to take a visible toll. I’m exhausted, I don’t feel like getting up in the mornings, I yawn all day, but still toss and turn when I do try and sleep. On the off chance that I do [...]

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*Ramble, ramble, sigh*

I don’t know where I’m going, I don’t know how I’m going to get there, and I don’t know how long it will take. So many things are uncertain, and yet things like my own clumsiness, vulnerability, and self-destructive tendencies can always be counted on. Sometimes, I can see myself and my condition through eyes [...]

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Suddenly, I feel very small…

I don’t even know what’s the matter with my head. Today started off really really early, but this morning was good, and even with not nearly enough sleep, I managed to stay awake in both of my classes, and my appointment with counselor lady. I even took the initiative to go to a familiar quiet [...]

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