I can only struggle for so long…

I have no idea what’s wrong with my mind. The past few days, maybe even a week, my moods have been swinging up and down and up and way down, from hour to hour. I can go from laughing with my roommates on my way to class, and come back two hours later with a [...]

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I haven’t got a catchy title, I just need to type…

So, I’m almost done with my first week of my second year of college. Things have, with tiny exceptions, been going extremely well. I haven’t gotten lost or missed any classes, I have most of what I need to get through the semester, including a job where I don’t feel totally out of place, even [...]

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So, I don’t really know where I’m going with this. I haven’t blogged in far too long, probably because I can’t seem to get my thoughts in order for long enough to write something of interest. Also, a good chunk of these summer weeks have been wonderful — my depression and BPD were stable, I [...]

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Suddenly, I feel very small…

I don’t even know what’s the matter with my head. Today started off really really early, but this morning was good, and even with not nearly enough sleep, I managed to stay awake in both of my classes, and my appointment with counselor lady. I even took the initiative to go to a familiar quiet [...]

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Emotional mountains and valleys

Today was a nice day. The brutal cold of midwestern winters is fading to a brisk, comfortable temperature, which means less time is spent bundling up before walking outside. Classes didn’t start until 12:40, we got to sight read new music in band, and I ate lunch and dinner with friends that made me laugh. [...]

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Here we go again…

Today doesn’t feel like a Tuesday. It’s throwing me off.
I got back from the retreat yesterday afternoon, after a day of adventuring through thigh-deep snow to frozen rivers, laughing, human knots and pyramids, conversations around candles and a burning fireplace, late night movies and Bible studies. On the whole, it was an experience I would [...]

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All these up and downs are making me ill…

The first week of classes has gone pretty well. My arm was healing, I made it to all my classes and bought all my books for less than half of what they cost last semester, I managed to stay warm in spite of the crazy midwestern freezing temperatures, I was keeping on top of what [...]

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Today is one of those days…

Today, I am in need of lots and lots of loud music. It’s barely afternoon, and it’s turning out to be one of those days where I need obscene amounts of Dr. Pepper, pink lemonade, and Lauren’s oatmeal raisin cookies. On days like today, I wish I had the boundless energy of my 10 year [...]

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